confused about the future

As, we are getting ready to meet with our advisors this week and set up classes for next semester,it finally hit me that i have no idea what i want to do with my life at all. Right now my major is nursing,but im not doing so well in chemistry so that has kind of discouraged me and made me wonder if nursing is really what im supposed to do with my life..its very stressful for me not to know what is going to happen. I havent really thought about any other possible majors but nursing because that is the only thing i have really ever wanted to do. I thought about being a nutritionist and i even thought about psychology for a while but nothing really seems to fit. I dont know what im truly good at and it bothers me. I have this fear that i am not going to do well enough in college and there going to kick me out and ill have to flip burgers as a living. I know that everyone says when your a freshman you dont really have to know what you want to do yet because it is all basics anyways.It still freaks me out though and i really wish i could figure out something that matches my personality well and that i can enjoy doing, and do it well.

deciding what to rush

This weekend were rush skits and all of them were unique and original. They all showed the personalities of the different tribes to help everyone better decide what tribe they want to be in. Pref day is this wednesday and i still have no idea what im going to do! I'm still trying to decide between two tribes and i probably wont know which one until the actual day of pref day! i know a lot of girls are having the same problems i am trying to decide what tribe they should be in. It's also scary because you could still end up with not getting the tribe you wanted, and if all my friends do the same one and everyone gets in it but me thats going to be dissapointing.

missing home =(

I'm from dallas texas. Im sure yall are wondering how i ended up here because everyone doess!ha..both my parents went here and met here..and my sister just graduated from here last year and is now going to MC's law school and living in clinton. I was born in texas and basically lived there my whole life. We did a lot of moving when i was younger,but we somehow always ended back up in texas. texas just feels like home to me.When i was moving down here i cried the whole drive,wondering what was going to be different about it when i came back for breaks,and would all my old friends still accept me or would i lose them too. Most people at mc dont live very far form home a lot so they are able to go home on the weekend and see there family and friends whenever they want but i am not able to do that. Im okay for the most part, but there are certain days where i get really down and just want to go home.The more i think of it though, mc is no my new home. My life is here now. When i go home for the first time for fall break everything is going to be different.I'm probably not going to like it because i like everything staying the same but i guess that is a part of life. i think im really going to grow up these next four years and im anxious to see what kind of person ill be when i leave here.

mc in general

i think it has been difficult for me to have the self control to get up every morning and go to class, especially since i dont have anyone telling me to do it.i also dont have anyone telling me to stay up all night to finish studying for a big chemistry class either but i know that i have to do it. ive been trying to balance everything,like what to do on the weekdays,what i have time for but its really hard. some nights i literally have things back to back and on top of that having to study so it becomes very difficult. I think spiritually mc has really helped me stay close to god,because of the activites on campus. There are a lot of bible studies to go too, and something going on almost every night. there are certain weeks where i feel farther away from god because i become so busy with everything else going on, but ive realized that if i keep god in the center of everything, everything else will come together =)

2. Rush!

So far i have really enjoyed mc. It has taken some time to get used to everything and having new surroundings but im slowly but surely adjusting. Rush has officially started so that is kind of stressful. These next two weeks will be hard having to keep up with classes and with that but i think it will also be a lot of fun to actually get involved with something at the school. I think being in a social tribe will help me a lot not to be homesick and to meet a lot of new people that i wouldnt have normally met if i wasnt in a tribe at all. The rush expereince here at mc is totallly different than how it is at a public university.It is a lot more laid back and not as much pressure as it would be at a university.
I think having social tribes like mc does really helps everyone to be able to have somewhere to go too if they feel stressed out or under pressure. It is just a way to have fun and to have people around you that support you.
im hoping to get into the tribe i want,because if i dont im not too sure if i even want to do it. I will have to find something else to get involved in on campus.